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Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it be if he had loved me truely loved me yes, i learnedAwhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me, and so i go around and just pretend loveIs not for me i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see thatU never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord know its killing me

So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok imLaughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on myFace...on my face singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la laLaaaa

Sometimes i sit at home by the phone hopin he might call me but he dont call me but then iRealize dreams come true arent for girls like me not like me, and so i go around with my headUp like it aint no thing and when the boys around with all my friends im into other things cuzU never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, lord knows its killing Me

So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok imLaughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on myFace...on my face ooohIts not easy (thing to do) sometimes its hard to (face the truth) its not the life that iWould choose but what else can i do if he dont love me no if he dont want me im not about toSit around let myself go (gooooo)